03 My Ego & My Heart

October turned out to be a resting month. I had a break from work as friends visited me from overseas. I also had a weekend getaway to the hot spring. It has been 4 months since I moved to the farm and I finally allowed myself to just be and rest.

Our culture often shames taking a rest. It sees pausing and resting as unproductive, and inefficient. It compares humans with machines, rooted in the industrial era. However, I found it is the resting period that I get to listen clearly to the voice within me.

The more I practice being present, the more I can listen patiently, and the easier it is for me to hear the conversation between my Ego and my Heart. As a result, I find the time to slow down and create a space for me to choose each step intentionally.

Holding the good intention to create life and deciding on each movement that aligns with my heart brings me calmness and peace.

Here is what I learned from this month:

The heart always follows the truth, while the ego often follows desire, fear or the need for validation. The heart seeks authenticity, connection and inner peace, and the ego often prioritises self-preservation, pride and attachment to external outcomes. We will always have both but we do have the choice of which one we want to listen to.

When I listen to my ego too much, I feel the suffering. But when I listen to my heart fully, I feel liberated. There is never too much on listening to my heart.

Be aware, be connected and be open.

Then you might just hear your heart start to whisper to you.

Nov 2024